Smelling the lilies

Ok...I am an emotional, over-reactive creature...I get that. So, blogging at times seems a bit like stripping at a club to me. Remove just a glove at first, then the other, then... When I am emoting, brooding, muddled in grey areas, I don't much feel like taking off my thong at the moment. Get it? Now, the really interesting part...besides the fact that I overuse ellipses (ok, that wasn't interesting at all!)...is that I just realized that I can do whatever the he2hockeysticks I want. This is my blog, and there is no one with a pie or a gun to force me to write. There is only me, and if I am not into it, then I can be alright with that. I will write when I get the urge and not when I feel I must. I am tired of deadlines on myself and at this time of year, I am rethinking my priorities and my self-imposed pressure. So, maybe if I just give my self a break, smell the lilies and chill, then flowing may actually become less of a chore...like it is right now. :)